™~My Life experiences~™

Long waited post.

2009-12-01T12:27:00.003+08:00

Alright. I'm just plain lazy when it comes to updating blogs and all. But here I am after centuries of not posting anything. :D

Anyway, I seriously don't know where to start from. So many things happened, both good and bad. Enjoyed performances in Reflections and President Star Charity, achieved the Flames Award 2009, having my "photoshopped" face plastered onto the walls of RP, participate in IVP and many more to be named.

Life goes on for me I guess. Friends joked with me and even teased me like no one's business but I'm glad they are having fun and hopefully I'm having fun as well. (:

Had many lovely souls to show care and concern to me. Sweety Lynnelley needs to mentioned as one of them. Seee! I blogged about you. (F)

Alrighty. Gotta finish up on my ppt now. Feel kind of sleepy now though. ): Ciaos! (:

Belated Post.

2009-08-12T22:02:00.007+08:00

Okay I know this is rather late but Blogger is really a pain at times by not allowing me to upload any pictures here. Arghs. Anyways..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHU EN!!! (:

Shu En's house is like 10 times bigger than mine! Gosh.. Was my first time going there though. But we certainly had fun and lots of laughter there! (:

Yes.. What do you know.. The rangers are united once again!.. This time with newer devices. :D Alright. We're kinda childish but it shows our unity right? Hmmms.. The photo was taken and edited by the "handsome" Daniel. -.- And yes, I am emphasizing on the word handsome. *winks

But I must admit that the picture was well edited. Great Job GR! (Green Ranger)

Woohoos! I certainly have to announce that I finally gotten the blue G-Shock watch! Actually it was a belated birthday gift from the other rangers. I was like damn 'G'-shocked when they presented it to me in a very mysterious way. :D Thank you guys soo much! (: Feel so part of the team yo! :D

Alrighty. Stay tune for more updates very soon! (: Good nighty folks!

Coming Together.

2009-08-08T00:00:00.006+08:00

Yes, NDP 2009 is just around the corner and I'm just about to get the mood right for that ceremony. How do I manage to do that? Well, let's just say that the performance for the National Day Observance Ceremony boost the atmosphere of NDP. What could I say? It's truly a come together experience for most of us rather.

I'm not really sure if being in-charge of choreographing performances brings about positive or a negative impact in my schedule. :X But anyways, it is my job as a VP for welfare. I kinda enjoy performing and entertaining the audience to a rather large extent. Guess that's the 'enthusiasm' in me. So whenever there's like performances in school, there goes an email received from Dr.Simon. -.- HAHA!

Rehearsals after rehearsals during the past 3 days till I injured my knee after doing some stunts. Arghs! ): Everyone there surely dreaded the on-going rehearsals and praying to be released home soon. But I really must say that the rehearsals have eventually paid off despite of all the trouble we went through.

The usual day of the performance would be called more of a success rather than a screwed up one. The technical and sound system went smoothly for most of the other IGs EXCEPT ours! Gosh! Wendi went up the stage wondering if I changed the music at the eleventh hour or something. But unfortunately, there was a power failure and caused the audio system to shut down.

Lister shouted to Wendi to continue performing without the support of the music. It was like totally unexpected for us but we managed to pull it off! This shows that the music was not an important factor in performing well afterall. (: Special thanks to the peeps in HipHop IG who gave their loudest cheers when we performed in a 'quiet' environment and atmosphere. The audience gave their support too! It surely boost our confidence and lifted up to the theme of determination. :D Oh yeah, Zaini even commented on our performance as the most professional performance! (: Cheers yo!

Princess randomly asked me to download this new software called oovoo. Hmm.. says it could webcam with 3 peeps or more at the same time. But It's super laggy! -.- One on one is still better I thought. :X And yes, I'm still envied okay, princess?.. >.<

Alrighty. Gotta turn in now. More updates soon! (hopefully) Tatas! (:

Emo inspiration.

2009-07-30T23:30:00.004+08:00

Yet another long-waited post of this dusty blog of mine. Oh wells, Blogger has recently refrained me from uploading any pictures here. Guess it is the right time to blog. I should say finally! (:

Alrighty. Been emo recently or rather on and offs though. But I'm alright now. I think. :X People always ask me this 'hot' question on how's life so far?.. I seriously have no idea how to answer them and most of the time I'll just ignore that question. :/ Anyway the above picture is currently my display pic in MSN and people assume that's me dressed emo-ly and sitting on a swing. Rather nice pic though. (: But too bad it's not me even though i wish it was. Hmmm.. perhaps i should try on a new fashion instead. *fantasizing*

Been reading more about fitness tips in Men's Health just recently. Introduced by Kenji, my hairstylist! HAHA! Busy downloading pictures as inspiration each time I visit the gym. Well, this is only like 40% of the motivation I need, the rest of the 60% is basically relying on my mental well-being. *winks* This could just be another form of distraction I need everyday to keep me going and staying strong. Yes. Holding on and maintaining a strong focus each day keeps me alive and free!

Some people would think I'm a little "out of my mind" to push myself further physically. Well, I feel that I'm actually doing this for the sake of myself and partially otherwise. This is how i make myself feel good and relaxed after each session. This is just me who's trying to add meaning to my mundane life. (: For those who kept encouraging me to continue this way, much appreciation goes to you all folks! :D

Shall stop here for now. Sleeping time! Tatas! (:

Durian Madness.

2009-07-02T23:59:00.010+08:00

Hello you people! (:

Long time since I've ever eaten durians. Haha! Indeed it is the BEST thing on earth!.. *winks at penguin* LOL!

Anyway. Bolang called me on the day when I skipped school which is on friday. That was the day which i had business law. Gosh! I really dislike that module due to the long-winded study cases! -.-

He called me to hang out at Geylang. I'm sure everyone is probably having dirty thoughts right now when i mentioned Geylang. Oh wells.. We were out to chill out and eating durians as well as smelly tofu. I've never tried any of the smelly tofu but I swear it is awesome. (: I savoured every bit of the tofu thanks to Pauline, Serene and Bolang for taking away for me. :D

I seriously have never been to geylang before and I know I shouldn't be called a Singaporean as well. -.- Anyway, there's always our tour guide Bolang to lead us in the food hunt. (: Furthermore, I don't even know much about durians except to eat them. Not sure about hunting for the right ones, edible ones rather. Hence, we just place our trust in Bolang for selecting the right and nice ones. (:

After which, we head down to Rochor beancurd stall which is known to be famous in Singapore. I think I gotta cut down on the beancurds and soyabean drinks for some men's health issues. :X

Shall leave you with the pictures to speak more! (:

Oh yea. Penguin wants to compete with me on who's more emo. -.-

Alrighty. Gotta leave class soon.

Security guards are starting to chase us out of class. -.-

Tatas! (:

Much Laughter.

2009-06-27T22:43:00.014+08:00

Yes.. Again and again and again was toooooo lazy to update my dusty blog. -.-

Anyways. My days in school were fun! Even when the H1N1 virus is starting to spread in RP which unfortunately everyone's happy about it initially. Everyone just loves to skip lessons and would find any random excuse to do so.

So many things happened as usual and school's getting boring nowadays. Sadly. ): Anyway, there's lots of pictures to upload which you know I'm totally lazy to upload them. Or maybe it's because of the recent Whose line craze which keeps me really entertained and fill myself with laughter! ;D Being sharing some of them with YingHong who is also crazy about them too! >.<

Moving on. I would say that my days with my recent class in rather enjoyable. Had random moments and much laughter to entertain us. LOL! Did a video and picture presentation to compare with other teams for the "best team award". Well surprisingly and fortunately, our team won the award! Everyone in the team got shocked and didn't expect it at all. We thought that there's one team did better than us. Oh wells.. (:

Webcamming became a "cannot do without" thing in school nowadays. Reason being is that school's boring. ): Arghs! Anyway, it was fun to webcam especially when it's with the small eyes one. Opps. :X I mean the banana who is Giovanna! Chimilogy?.. Hmms.. LOL! ;D She bullies me the most alright?! Bleah! :P

Alrighty. I gotta turn in now. Mum's nagging can be a pain in the neck. Shhhh!.. :X

Enjoy the pictures below! Credits to penguin for the printed photos! -.- Tatas! (:

Cable Ski Time!

2009-05-20T22:24:00.012+08:00

Alright it's been a LONG time since i've updated my blog. Procrastination is the word to describe me. ):

Oh wells. Anyway, E56D had the first skiing outing last wednesday! ~~Only a few turned up though.~~ ;D

Btw the good thing as a guy, being in this class was wonderful. ~~Simply because the girls outnumbered the guys.~~ :X

Moving on. I've NEVER done skiing before and probably this is my first time doing it. Oh yea, trust me when i say it's harder than it looks. -.-

And yes, I truly SUCK in it for a beginner. GOSH! The girls were better than me! :X There were suppose to have TWO guys going but in the end only ONE guy went to ski. *Stares at Bolang*

Shall leave you guys with the pictures below! Till then! ~~I hope..~~ :X

Birthday Wishes.

2009-04-22T13:51:00.022+08:00

Hey there you people! :D Yes i know it's been ages since i've updated my blog due to my laziness. :X

But anyway. these few posts are to show how much i really appreciate the people whom i love and love me on my birthday!.. Wees! This is really the BEST birthday i ever had in my life!.. :D

Firstly, this post is specially for the people who wished me via SMS, Call, facebook and MSN..

Shall list down the people who wished me via calling:

Reuel aka Ruji!! :X Thanks bro for calling me and singing a birthday song! *shy* HAHA! :D

Sis Yiyin!! :D HAHA! Thank you so much! It's Okay that your alarm clock didn't wake you up at 12am! But you still managed to call me 15mins later!.. Huggies! :D

People who wished me via sms:

Haylie!! I think she's the first to wish me 10 mins earlier but i appreciate it lots!.. :D Thanks!

JOJO!! Haha! The second one to wish me! Haha thanks for remembering man!.. :D

Hobart!! haha! Thanks for your wishes man! It's okay if you cannot make it for the celebration! It's always the thought that counts! :D

Priscillia!! LOL! Thanks for your wishes girl! Sorry i forgot to save your number! Heehee! Thanks for the present btw!.. So sweet of you! :D

Liang Yu!! Haha! Thanks for your wishes too girl! You and Pris wished me at the same time! HAHA! Didn't know right?.. LOL! :D Btw, was touched when you said hard to forget my birthday! :X

Auntie Betty aka Godma!! Thanks for your wishes Dearest Godma! You never fail to remember my birthday each year!.. :D

Wan Ling!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes! And hmmm.. what homework did you do?.. *wonders* :X

Chris!! HAHA! Hey bro! Thanks for your wishes man! Really appreciate the things you did for me during FOP! Thank you so much! Shall caught prawns the next time! :D

Eileen tan!! HAHA! Hey thanks for your wishes! Appreciate it lots! :D

Ah Long!! HAHA! Thanks so much for the magical wish man! HAHA! I can feel the magic already! :D

Last but not least, JiaYan my dearest princess! :D LOL! Thank you very very much for your wishes!!! I really didn't know that you could surprise me by being the last to wish me! :D Appreciate it lots lots! I'll shall try not to be dumb anymore but you must try not to bully me! :P I've enjoyed every moment! :D

People who wished me via facebook:

Si On!! HAHA! This random fellow wished me 1 day before my birthday.. HAHA! But anyways! Thanks so much! :D Btw stop breaking the birthday rules!.. :X

Karina!! HAHA! Thanks for wishing me and singing the birthday song zoo version 3 times to me!.. HAHA! :D

Kwok Jian!! Haha! Thanks for your wishes man! Bro forever! :D

Daniel aka Green Ranger!! Haha! Thanks for your wishes man! Btw stop di siao-ing me!.. LOL!

Tasha!! LOL! Hey thanks for your wishes girl! HAHA! Yea it's really cool to turn 19 on 19th April! :D

Lao shi!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes and remembering my birthday! :D

Jun Heng!! HAHA! Thanks for wishing me man! Funny sia you!.. :D Had so many expressions everytime! :D

Chee Guan!! HAHA! My Primary, secondary and RP friend! Thanks for your wishes man! :D

Meris!! LOL! Thanks so much for your wishes! :)

Bing Long!! Haha! Thanks man for the wishes! And don't post my unglam pics on the web! :X

Barry!! HAHAHA! Thanks for your wishes bro! Hope you can get used to FB! :D

Sarah Hoon aka Noob!! Muahaha! Thanks for your wishes and counting down to my birthday! LOL! :D

ManLi!! Hahaha! Thanks so much for your wishes girl!.. :D

Jun An!! LOL! Thanks bro for wishing me in whatever i do! :D

Woan Ting!! My Year 1 freshie! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes girl! So sweet of you yea! haha!

Vignette aka Pig!! Opps! HAHA! Thanks for your BURFDAY wishes! You still owe me pressies! :X

Julie!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes! Seeya in trainings yea?.. :)

Valerie!! LOL! Thanks so much for your wishes! Hope you're not too stressed in your work! *hugs* :D

Khairul from JIVE!! HAHA! Thanks bro for your wishes! :)

Ying Jie!! HAHA! Thanks for wishing me girl! I know it's been ages since i've talked to you but you still remember my birthday! So touched! :D

Wilson Foo!! HAHA! My Best Bro! Thanks for everything you did for me on my birthday man! Hello you! :D

Winston!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes man! Had fun chilling out with the tasteless cookies and cream drink! :X

Aqillah!! My FOP Freshie! Thanks for wishing me! Hope you had fun during the Orientation! :D

Ren Mao!! Thanks for your wishes man! Shall see you around during trainings next time! :)

Ace!! Thanks for your wishes man! See you around in school and trainings! :)

Aizad my b***k friend!! Thanks for remembering my birthday man! And i did not gay with you Okay?! HAHA! :)

Khairul, my W45F classmate!! Hey thanks dude for wishing me man! Appreciate the times when you were there for me! :D

Michelle, My ex-tuition mate!! Thank you so much for your wishes! See ya around in school! :D

Athirah, my FOP freshie!! Thank you so much for wishing me yo! Stay hyper and seeya in school! :D

People who wished me via MSN:

MinQi! Thanks for your wishes! :D

Jo!! Thanks for your wishes man! Also for being so "concern".. HAHA! :D

XinYi!! Thanks for the surprise on that day! :D

Shu En!! HAHA! Thanks for wishing me late! :X No worries btw!..

Sylvia!! Thanks for forgetting and wishing me girl! :X

Ronald!! HAHA! Thanks for your last-min wishes and present! :D Woo! White ranger!

Jayson!! HAHA! Thanks so much for the surprise bro! You got me! :D

Hong Bin!! Thanks for your wishes and present! Love it! :D

Julie!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes! :D

Jac!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes girl! :D

Khairul!! Thanks Bro for wishing me man! :D

Iainrick!! Thanks for your wishes man! :D

Valerie!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes girl! Be stress-free my dear! :D

Vignette!! Thanks for FORGETTING and wishing me too! :)) HAHA!

Davis!! LOL! Thanks bro for your wishes! :D

Li Ming!! Thanks for wishing me!.. Btw stop spoiling my magic tricks! HAHA! :P

Allynn Teo!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes girl! Where's my birthday card?!?! :X

Daughter Ching!! HAHA! Thanks for FORGETTING and wishing me as well! :D

XinYi!! My FOP freshie!! Thanks for your wishes and surprise! :D

Karina!! My lovely FOP Freshie! Thanks so much for your wishes and planned surprise for me! Appreciate it lots! :))

Melissa aka Ah lian!! LOL! Thank you for remembering and wishing me girl! :D

Sandra!! HAHA! I seriously didn't know that you remembered my birthday! Thanks so much for wishing me! :)) -hugs-

Lastly, Sarah Hoon!! HAHA! Thanks for your wishes and effort to write the words Happy Birthday on MSN! Stay NOOB on FB! Kidding! :D

Gotta Be Somebody.

2009-03-25T23:19:00.005+08:00

Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback

This time, I wonder what it feels like

To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of

But dreams just aren't enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling

The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene

Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end

Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with.

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight

And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu

Me standing here with you

So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end

Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with.

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough

You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on

'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

And everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh..

Nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Nobody wants to be the last one there

'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

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HK Trip 2009

2009-03-14T22:31:00.027+08:00

Hey there pretty people!.. >.<

I'm probably the latest, as usual, to post a blogpost here. But nevertheless, here goes..

I'm back from HK! Alright since last thursday but i'm still back and i'm already starting to miss HK!.. Awww.. ):

Like what some of my friends said, i'm like going to HK more on a vacation than for competition.. LOL!.. But i really enjoyed there.. the food, shopping, atmosphere and everything!.. Woohoo!

Anyway folks!~ I came home with 2 gold medals!.. Did the school as well as my loved ones proud!.. ;D

Gonna leave you guys with pics, lots of them here!.. ENJOY! ;D

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Finally, A post.

2009-02-22T21:49:00.007+08:00

Yes, finally a post and after being literally commented by herman that my blog is dying. Yups so here i am back. *Blows away spider webs*

Well. Many things have really happened. The good and bad things.

Anyway, i'll shall just post the recent happenings that i could think of. :X

Before i go deeper into detail below, just to let you guys know i'm going to Hong Kong in the next 2 weeks!.. Wees! But it's for competition purposes. ):

But at least i have an opportunity to visit HK right?.. Haha! ;D

Moving on. Training was tough these few weeks and unfortunately Coach Cai is always picking on me to do double of what the others do. Daniel, lister, Ronald and the rest should know very well.. haha! I even got a phobia whenever my chinese name is called. Coach kept calling saying these: "建民! 加油!.. 建民! 动作做好一点!.. 建民! 不准去厕所!.." And there i was WTH?!?! -.-zzz!

Well. Perhaps it's my fault for taking up the challenge of the freestyle routine as compared to others. Hence expectations were higher. (especially from coach cai.) DAMN!

Patrick and Kwok Jian recommended that i prepared a cofin for myself in case i couldn't survive in the hands of my coach. Gahh!

There was a time when i couldn't take any more of that torture and coach finally "explained" to me why he was damn harsh on me (as a form of encouragement).

Shall not reveal too much on the insights as it's for me to know and for you to find out. ;D *Winks to Daniel and Lister*

But i'm glad it motivated me alot.

Currently it's just about 3 more trainings to competition and looks like i gonna pump up with loads of stamina and red bull if possible. *grins*

P.S: I swear my legs were shaking and aching badly when taking these pics. ):

Legs keep giving out and breaking down.

Head keeps telling me
this can't be worth all of this.

I don't know how far I've gone

but I don't care

I'm not gonna stop running.

Open House @ RP

2009-01-12T17:51:00.004+08:00

Yes the open house at RP is finally here in 2009 and here i am feeling so reluctant to perform on stage on that day. Geez! If not for the Hong Kong trip, I would be sleeping at home. >.<

Was expecting a whole lot of students attending the open house but instead only a handful of people came. Sigh. So much for the tedious preparation during the rehearsals. ):

Anyway as long as we did our best in our performance and not screwing up any part of it, then it's fine. ;D

Gonna leave you with some random and i mean very random pics here..

Christmas Time!

2008-12-27T17:06:00.014+08:00

Christmas this year was a bomb! I mean fun!! Simply because i got to celebrate it with my family and more friends! ;D

Alrighty. There's so much to talk about during christmas and i guess i'm gonna just post pics here. You might wanna guess the captions. ;D

Boredom.

2008-12-17T18:52:00.007+08:00

Yes this is the third day of holidays and i am going to rot soon. Asked the peeps of W45F whether they are free anot to go for a nice outing to kill my boredom but unfortunately, most of them had their plans. Alright my fault for the last minute thing. Went online and happen to see ching online. So i asked her if she had any plans later on. Well she said that she will be passing by AMK hub to get a gift.

Yup and so we met up. So yeah, do take note that if ching said that she will be a LITTLE late, she will be 1HOUR late. Believe me. >.<

Well i have birds and flies to accompany me when i was standing there waiting for the arrival of princess Ching. >.<

Moving on.

Roaming around aimlessly in AMK hub and tried to shop for some things there. Settled at subway and chilled there. Seriously, i was very like very "tickled" when she spoke very slangish to the salesperson there. I mean yea i seen alot of times but i somehow just find it very amusing. LOL!~

Anyway. I'm not really sure if i had ordered correctly for my meal but i received a really huge cup than ching's. Furthermore, i had 3 cookies instead of 2. Ching's eyes grew bigger when i got back to my seat. Ohoh, i finally tried honey mustard! Nice!~ >.<>

After which, Ching went to buy her what foundation which i mistakenly thought there was a promotion. Okay that was random.

Ahhh! Finally caught ching in the unglam act! Muahaha! ;P

Anyway, thanks ching for killing my boredom and yes i think you should trade sushi for the one you saw at the game shop. >.<

Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more
You never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone
I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn’t mean you shouldn’t bleed
I can be anyone anything
I promise I can be what you need

Unending frustration.

2008-12-12T14:44:00.003+08:00

I shall not say anything now. Just letting you guys have a look at my RJ for yesterday.

RJ Question : What is the most frustrating thing that has come up throughout today class and how did you deal with it? (If you have not deal with it today, how do you plan to deal with similar situation in the future?)

For this question, i am going to be very honest with the most frustrating thing that has come up throughout today in class. But unfortunately, i feel that i did not manage to deal with it. The first and the second meeting was alright but during the second break out, something personal happened occurred to me and i suffered a really big blow. I could not think at all.
My mind was in a daze. I was seriously too distracted by it and hence it affected me alot. This would explain the moody behaviour in class. I really apologise for it.

Therefore, i am planning to be more responsible in my learning and not let these personal feelings affect me. I know that it is completely difficult to control this inner feeling inside me but perhaps i should learn to control it and not to let it affect my work as well as my teammate. I felt very selfish at that time to my teammates who tried to put up with me despite of my ignorant behaviour. I will try my very best to change my frustration and appreciate what my teammates have done for me.

PS: Thank you for posting this RJ. I can really express myself here. (:

Sorry guys in W45F for freaking you guys out with my moody face and i really didn't mean to act this way. VERY SORRY!! ):

Painful Remorse

2008-12-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

Got so many things in my head now. Being really distracted also. My mind's in a big mess now.

Can hardly think straight now. So many words to describe me now. Pissed, depressed, angry, happy but pretending to be. Sometimes being busy with the stuff which are not very important. Just can't help it. ): Sigh.

Came back home feeling all drained up and got to study for UT tml. ): Couldn't focus much. And there i was asking a random person online who happen to be allynn to cheer me up a little. But i didn't really expect her to draw something like that for me. Thanks allynn! Was brightened up a little. (:

Hopefully it is not a mask i am wearing now.. till then..

The hardest thing i have to do, is killing me inside.
You'll never know how it feels though.
Tried to be selfish
but i kept holding on.
For i know it is not morally right.

Reflections 2008

2008-11-27T21:54:00.006+08:00

Finally i got the time and mood to upload some photos recently. Alright! A few weeks ago. Mostly pictures of Wushu peeps. Anyway enjoy! ;D Pictures take it away!

Lying Close To you.

2008-11-22T21:22:00.006+08:00

Yet again, reluctance to attend school yesterday. Gahh! Enterprise! I mean i like the learning in class but not the MODULE! ):

Anyway. I just have to attend because now my mum DID NOT allow me to skip school and feared i'll make it a habit to do so. >.<

Terry sent his lappy for repair and which means he did not have his laptop with him to school. So great! Geez! Work is gonna be more this time as he would need his laptop to do the ppt.

Moving on. Third meeting was kinda wild for me and terry. We presented our calculations and i mean the wrong calculations. But hey! We kept telling ourselves that we did try our best to solve it and blah blah so as to comfort ourselves. (:

We were like damn high during the questioning of teams part. Terry told us to "load our guns" and hopefully the other teams had "shields" with them. :X

Questions arising vigorously to each team and surprisingly enough, it kept us awake through out the whole of third meeting. Cool!~ Haha!

Moving on. Training was tough and it was intensive training period. Sigh. Aching bodies! *rubs affected areas*

At night, met up with the JIVE clique to celebrate Dennis' birthday at beer belly.

Had fun talking about random stuff there and doing all the hoo ha stuff. Didn't feel tired even though i am very tired. Paradox. Right.~

Goosh i am soo lazy to upload photos. Apologies guys! ):

Somehow a part of me say i would find you
And deep down in my heart
As i close my eyes
I just knew i would find you
At the same place, same time and same instance.

I could stay awake
Just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming.

I could spend my life
In this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure.

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this.

I just wanna hold you close
And feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time.

Over reacting.

2008-11-20T22:21:00.008+08:00

I kinda feel a little disappointed with myself lately. Not sure the reason why but i have yet to find out. I have been like ranting so much on my previous posts and it did help to release the dark side in me i guess.

Anyway. I think i am suffering a disease called over-reacting. Yes although it is not very serious but it somehow drives me crazy. Ecstasy pills would not help either.

Considering the side effects to be rather good in the sense that i did not even bother much by my horrible enterprise grades. Okay that's bad if we think it further. >.<

Sometimes this disease is really annoying. I tried many ways to cure it but it takes a huge amount of effort to actually get rid of it. Perhaps the least i could do is to suppress it that's all. But it just won't go away.

Probably the cure is not really that far away. I believe this cure consists of love, care and concern. Unfortunately this cure is hard to pass by and if not treated soon, might not know what will happen eventually.

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

VB Strikes again.

2008-11-18T22:51:00.006+08:00

As stated in the title, the most hated subject has finally arrived in problem 10. As usual, know nothing about it and also was not paying full attention to it either. Relying on Vin, Syaheeda, Sakina and Hariz for solutions to the problem. What a horrible teammate i am. ): Sorry guys!

Well i think i will most likely get a B or a C for today. Anyway what the heck.

Moving on. Got the tickets to the magic show at night and it was pretty last minute i should say. But thanks to JY that i got it in an envelope with only 1 ticket inside. ;D

Met jeff at the queue for the tickets and he was like damn shocked when i got the tickets without even queuing. Ah in your face, Jeff!! :P Joking! Went to watch with beloved sis yiyin and Ah long as the backstage helper. JY is somewhere at the backstage also. ;D

Anyway. The show was amazing, mesmerising and funny. Although there are some tricks which are like rather obvious to spot but other than that, i think it was a good job done! Enjoyed it! ;D

Yup after the show ended, there was me walking with my shadow back home. Listening to music and having all kinds of imagination.

Well i just cannot help it though. Maybe i will just rant some random imagination.

A person who is inspired by the professionals or even the ones who are better than them can do many wonderful things. All we need to do is to believe in ourselves and never to say no to failure. If we do not try, how would we know the result? It is worth the try. Even if we fall, we have learnt something from it and at the same time try to pick ourselves up. I know that it is a tough thing to do and of course actions speaks louder than words. But shouldn't we try to reach out and be outstanding? Hence, we cannot just simply whatever this and that. (:

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I will break it for you
If darkness blinds you
I will shine to guide you
Don't give up

Stressful Days.

2008-11-17T13:06:00.007+08:00

Alrights. To be honest, the reason why i can blog right now is because i didn't attend school today. *grins*

Fortunately my mum actually allowed me to skip school knowing that i am like damn exhausted from all the activities occuring during the days recently.

But before i talk more about it, i just realised that i missed my MODULE BRIEFING!!!

How infuriating!! >.<

Oh btw i also found out that Weili also pon school! Haha got someone to accompany me! =X

Anyway. As i was saying, these few days have being a torture to me. Starting from thursday onwards till sunday. Gahh!

Thursday was fine when it was communication day and not forgeting the maths UT. Ohoh i got a my first surprisingly B+ for my Maths UT 1!! So sorry for the random interuption. ;D

Moving on. Communication was okay when we discussed more about disclosing information and so on. Later I had to rush down to for rehearsal for the Reflections 2008 at TRCC. Damn at first i was like soo reluctant to go but no choice. ): The whole rehearsal thing lasted till like 1130pm! OMG lo.. Had to cab home. ): So angry lo! Moreover i forgot to complete my peer evaluation and haven't did my RJ. Had to submit through email for the both of them. In the end slept at around 2am. *yawns*

Well, what happened on thursday would affect what's gonna happen on friday. It's a butterfly effect if you know this parable. ;D

Friday was quite a day for me too. Lack of sleep caused me to miss my usual morning train to school. Yup was late for class. Met terry on my way in the lift and we both came in the class late by 5 mins. Somehow i didn't bother to care much about the downgrading of 0.5 of being late. Don't know why also. Perhaps i wasn't in the mood to do anything but sleep. Damn!~

First and second meeting was alright until it comes to the third meeting. And we were asked to present on majong paper! Dammit man! ): Terry actually wanted to design the ppt but unfortunately it was changed. Haiz. Later terry left and we had to struggle with the presentation.

Our team just randomly put in whatever information we found and crap our way through. I already got a bad feeling that we will screw up then and yes we did. Best of all, my classmates told me that i sounded very pissed off when i concluded the whole presentation. Seriously, yea i was for many obvious reasons. So yea. That was my friday.

Moving on to saturday. Hate it when i had to wake up at 7am and be in school at 830am. Damn tired luhs! I slept in the train and the next thing you know, i reached there already. Damn time runs fast when you are ~~enjoying~~ sleeping. I could just find any random place and fall asleep like that.

It was a full day rehearsal and our wushu team had to put on and take out our performance costumes again and again. sigh. But at least there was fun and laughter there in the dressing room at TRCC. *smiles* Performance was at night and it was a success! But i screwed up for my part. ): Kept blaming myself for it.

Now moving on to Sunday which was yesterday. Yet again, another early morning as in 645am that early. Gahh! had about 3 to 4 hrs of sleep. I'm going to be a walking zombie soon! Then the bus 138 took like about 20 mins to arrive! Damn i am like soo late.

Anyway. Suppose i am the last one to reach there. Okay i am the last one to reach there. Humph! >.<

Okay well actually i was looking forward to this event but i guess it wasn't worth looking forward to after all. If you have read my big sis' (Yiyin) blog, you would probably know the summary of it. Yes it is one of the worst events i ever come across. Shall not go into further details for public reasons.

So much has happened and after the event we had dinner at AMK hub. The usual fun and laughter by JIVE clique. Later followed by playing pool. Well that was a break we truly deserve i guess. Photos will be uploaded soon! Tatas! (:

You got me falling
Through noticing the little things you do
Putting a hold right over me
Funny as it seems
You make me dream
Doing the little things
those little things you do

Ranting Wonders.

2008-11-08T23:35:00.007+08:00

Update blog! Update blog! Yet again people have been telling me that most of the time. Probably they are getting quite sick and tired of telling me.

Well i guess the reasons are simple, its either i am busy or did not simply have the mood to update. This post would be a mixture of the good and bad moments in the recent days.

Anyways. Life have been rather 'sucky' or even 'unfair' if you call it that way. Yes i agree that life is never easy, but it keeps us going strong. *looks down*

Many words can be described these few days. Confusing? Depressing? Disappointed? Melancholy? Satisfied? And many more..

If you have been observant enough, you would find that most of the previous post i have stated random phrases like "why can't i get what i want?", "why does this so and so is happening to me?".

Yea. So maybe after gone through the "pain and agony" these days, i've came up with a new phrase: "if i can't have what i want, then let me want what i have."

Seriously, i am quite lost for words of what to say now. Everything happens with a flash.

Relating to the title, don't you agree that ranting really works wonders?? I believe so.

Reason being.. It helps you relief your inner pain in you. It brings out the true-self in you. It prevents you from going crazy unnecessarily. *sigh of relief*

Well i will not reveal what i randomly ranted out but it definitely feels good in the end. Indeed rainbow after the storm. ;D

Special thanks to Yiyin (Loving sis), Weili, Wilson (BFF) and Sylvia!!! Thanks guys for listening to my problems and giving advices and words of encouragement! =D So sorry for disturbing you guys if i did! Love you guys lots!!! =)

Be not afraid that this would affect our friendship
Because it has gone deeper than before.
Don't keep saying it's your fault for everything
as i know that it isn't.

I'm sorry for giving you lots of headaches
and hurt you in every possible way.
Due to my selfishness
it tored me apart to see you sad.

Should have put myself in your position
and see the mess that i have created.
Everytime i try to ignore you
A strangled smile will fall from your face
I really cannot bring myself to see that happen.

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
I actually mean it and you know it.

Tears of joy flowed down my cheeks
when you feel the same way about me.
I shall respect your every decision
as i know you have my interest at heart.

I'll do whatever it takes
to make you that happy person again.
Although i very much wish to hold your precious hands
but i'll be there during your ups and downs.
I'll always stay happy to make you happy.
Until my very last breathe
I'm here for you..

Whatever it takes, I'll be there.

Everything Changes.

2008-10-24T13:06:00.013+08:00

I am currently now alone in class whereas everyone went for Phyllis' Miss SHL thing. Well it's a good thing perhaps. Privacy for me to blog a while and emo a little. Yup.

It has been rather tiring these days and am still questioning myself for this behaviour. Heard that when people are in love, they tend to over react and assume lots of things. Which eventually would result in depression. Crying for the wrong reasons when it's not.

No mood to think about anything else other than the so-called blame which i always put upon myself. I am really confused and in a world of hidden mysteries. Mysteries unknown and yet to be found out.

I just feel that the feeling is so different compared to last time. It is true that time changes everything. Gahh! I somehow hate that meaning.

I really wish that time would freeze and play back all the wonderful moments we had. But i guess it is really not possible.

Wild imaginations wandering inside my head. It is like a fly irritating you non stop. I am still lost as to why all these things just suddenly happen without me being aware of it. It is probably what is troubling me recently.

I kept wondering to myself if i was at fault or is there something which i said or done to hurt you?? I am seriously confused and shagged.

Maybe i'll just leave you with this random picture below. Think whatever that comes straight to your mind when you see this pic because it is what i am feeling now..

Can our moments be the same as how it used to be? That's all i ever ask for.

IVP Wushu!

2008-10-20T23:32:00.011+08:00

Yes it is really been another long long time since the 9th october till now and i have not updated my blog. Busy with UTs and personal stuff and so on. Well to simply put it, busy = No time, Not time = cannot blog. >.<

I seriously do not know where to start from. Perhaps it is the main disadvantage of blogging so late!! Gahh!

Anyways. I shall just update whatever that comes into my mind then. =X

Hmm. Bonding in W45F is improving i must say but i believe we can still go further into class outings during the holidays yah?? *winks*

UTs screwed up and daily grade expectations became higher. Great.. What could be good from that?

Just finished my IVP Wushu competition not long ago and as usual, i did not win anything and best of all, i had fun. Gahh! Not only did i injure my knee from all those high risk jumping and flying, there's a hole in my performance suit and it is the size of my injury. T.T

Anyway. I am just glad that RP came in 3rd overall but SP was 1st!! DAMN!

After which, went out to eat with Wushu peeps at selegie soya bean! Beancurd rocks there man!

Decided to buy beancurd with peanut tang yuan for JY. Hoping she likes it because I do! >.<

Was there to accompany her as she was bored. No one to talk to. >.<

Shall update more on the night with JIVE clique another time. Turning in now. Nites everyone! ;D

Love me tender.

Self-Expressions.

2008-10-09T13:50:00.005+08:00

Something just occured to me and I'm not feeling any better. Sigh. Hopefully it won't affect me later in the presentation.

Since today's communication problem is about Expressing yourself. What a coincidence i should say. Reason being is this.

Since we say a picture paints a thousand words. Then can you guess what words can i use to describe my expression now?? Refer to the random picture below.

Emoing.

Busy Busy Busy!!

2008-10-08T22:40:00.006+08:00

Busy busy busy! Well actually that sums up as to why i took such a LONG TIME to update my blog. *Stares at Wilson and Vig*

Days have been "normal" for me but anyway, what can i say?? Life goes on.. >.<

Wilson told me he won't post anything later than 3 to 4 days because he thinks it's kinda "old & outdated". Well for me it's different. Sometimes it's good to be outdated right?? *winks*

Speaking of wilson. I haven't ~~screw~~ settle with him a very "major" issue (to me, of course) that he asked me to accompany him together with alvin and clique to the MotorShow.

Why i make such a big fuss is because I HAD TO PAY $8 DOLLARS TO ENTER!?!?!?!

And no ching! It's not COOL OR WHAAT!?!?! (In case you were to say that)

Contest forms even states the terms and conditions. But i don't see why WILSON FOO JIA MING didn't state them?!?!?! Gahhh!!

Anyways. No choice luhs. Entered reluctantly at first but at least there's a stunt performance included in the entrance fee. Lucky for wilson it is included or else i shall start asking him to pay for my meals for 1 week! *grins*

The showroom were quite nice and vibrant i should say but more is expected from the visitors i guess. The same car, same designs, same colours but different models! Right!! *smacks myself*

For the moment i always thought that the cars were the centre of attraction. But with the models posing beside them, i guess not. Come on! It's common and perfectly normal for guys to drool and girls to envy. Kinda side track hur?? LOL!

I find this car very cool as it has a design of a lotus and able to submerge under water! Now that's cool! >.<

Propellors there you see..

OMG! I fell in love with this car when i laid my eyes on it!
Totally awesome! >.<

Smile & forget.

Pon-ing school again.

2008-09-24T16:54:00.007+08:00

Finally a day which i very much feel like pon-ing school for the fact that it is raining ~~chickens and ducks~~ cats and dogs in the morning. Can it be any worse to start the day with downpouring rain?!?! Yup, was rather reluctant to drag myself to school. Haizz.

Anyway. I wasn't feeling very well then. Had a quite a serious flu yesterday. Well being forward looking, i predicted that my nose would still be running around the classroom if i were to attend today. *coughs* Excuses *coughs*

It is only the 4th week and i am already both mentally and physically tired. Damn. Guess JY was right after all. I AM SOO WEAK!! *emos one corner*

After i just woke up not long ago, i had this feeling of missing school. Although i had like 12 hrs of sleep today, but i kinda miss schooling. Don't ask why and i know it's weird. Perhaps i'm totally used to going school daily till i have this strange sense of loss. Gahh.

Moving on. The past few days in school and in my class have been rather interesting and fun. But still couldn't compare to E36C. Maybe it is just the beginning of the 4th week and still a lot of things to catch up on yah??

But i really must say that i am starting to enjoy the times with my new class. A few jokers in class, well me being one of them, adding vibracy in class i guess. >.<

My facis are already considered lenient and fun-to-talk-to type of people. Yea much better than other classes whereby their facis don't even give any "freedom" to students like not allowing them to MSN or even have breakfast during 1st break outs. Sheeeh!

As usual in Sem 1 for problem 1, straight Bs would mostly occur in my LEO page. The same goes in Sem 2. But i can say that there's improvement in problem 2 & 3 yea?? *winks*

Having 3 As for the first 3 problems is a little disappointing to me. But comparing with people who has 3 or more Cs, yup it's better not to set too high expectations. >.<

High expectations always results in high disappointments.

Staying strong.

2008-09-18T23:36:00.008+08:00

Actually today was meant to be an ecstatic day for me but due to the fact that a rather misfortunate event took place and "ruin" my day. Gahh!

*I'm just gonna be random and say whatever i feel like saying now.*

There's a saying whereby "The more you expect much of something, the more you will feel more depressed." I so strongly agree with this statement.

Well, this isn't the first time it has ever happened to me. Even though i'm kinda of like getting used to this feeling. A feeling of disappointment/~~Hopes dashed/End of the world feeling.~~

When things don't get in your way and you could do nothing, all you got to do is just sit there and put on that smiling mask of yours. How infuriating!

But have you ever been to a situation where during a competition only the top 4 positions will receive medals and you are the 5th ranking?? Furthermore the 4th and the 5th rank differs by only 0.05 points?? Feels sucky right?!?!

Everything happens for a reason and i wonder what it is. >.<

Sometimes i really wonder if the world is fair and justice-based??

Seriously i mean shouldn't people who worked bloody hard and sacrifices his or her time to contribute to a society deserve a better and higher position or status?? I mean it's only FAIR!

I really feel for this person, crying her hearts out, pretending to be fine when she's not. Be Strong okay Big sis!! I'll always stand by you!

What's wrong with society nowadays?!?!

Moving on. Yup i did not get the expected and the unexpected turn out to be the expected. Drowning with disappointments overwhelmed me instantly. Perhaps that would be classified as reactions. But come to think of it though, after much thoughts and encouragements, i came up with a response.

Accepting what society has become and live with it. Challenges arise and i'll be ready for them! For this is just only the BEGINNING.

Emotions get me losing control
I’m losing control
It’s the way that I must live
Even though It’s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There’s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

This world left me all by myself
Now why do they keep playing with my mind
Trying to break me down
Never let my fears conquer me
Cuz I know in my heart what I can be.

Be Strong & Stay Strong.

2008-09-14T23:06:00.008+08:00

That day on the 11th Aug 2008 was supposed to be quite a day for me but unfortunately, my day started off with me losing something sentimental to me. =(

Yup so much for what happens EARLY in the morning. Kept blaming myself for the loss of it as during lesson time, all i could ever think about was how it snapped off my lappie carrier in the bus. The feeling just SUCK when i were to lose something whereas in this case it is like losing my handphone even though it just cost a few bucks.

I really did not feel like myself that day. Tried to put them away but failed to. Did not participate much or rather not in the mood. *sighs* But i know it won't be fair for my teammates if i continue to perform this way.

Well thanks to Vignette when she suspected that i wasn't myself and kept cheering me up with all sorts of funny emotions. She even gave me chocolates! Thanks Vig! =)

JY was there also to pass me her's so as to cheer me up. But she kept insisting to hold on to it for the whole day. Well i couldn't anything from her so yup. Thanks very nice JY! ^.^

That must have probably cheered me up and continue to be actively participating in class. Credits would go to the both of them! >.<>

This would be the little thing which is so precious to me till it could just suddenly slip off my hands. =(

I'm strong on the outside but vulnerable in the inside.

2008-09-06T21:12:00.005+08:00

Alrights. I shall post about my new class since i am like so late (as usual). Gahh! Thanks Ching for the "postive" comment. >.<

Been with the class W45F for about 3 days and the people i knew were kingsley, Terry and small Ben. Well if you think there's only a few people i know in the same class as me, you might wanna try asking the rest of my friends. Some only knew at most 2 and some none.

I felt lucky when this "random RP system" randomise every yr 1 students to each random class. Yup call it fate or typical randomness but it really does happen.

It's pretty common for each new class to be quiet during the first 3 days as someone seems to be a stranger to one another. Yupyup.

Facis and even the learning experience changed and trying to get use to the new world of DPDP. Basically in my class, DPDP do occur quite frequently.

Didn't know that kingsley can become rather talkative and knowledgeable. Well it has it's advantages and disadvantages. It can be very useful in team contributions and it can also be irritating! No offense Bro! >.<

Anyways. Kingsley and me were in the same team for 3 days. LOL! Presentations by teams have been rather different to me as probably i was really used to E36C's presentation style. But i have really learnt alot from the peeps in E36C and i really miss you guys! Awww..

The feeling of presenting in front of my class is different compared to E36C. Facis are becoming stricter and probably expects more from us. Rahh! Everything changes in other words.

This made me ponder upon something important. The importance of appreciating the moments, peeps and facis in E36C. Yes moments were cherished in my mind and heart. Peeps were always be remembered in my life. Facis will always be the supporting, guiding and understanding teachers and mentors i know! ^.^

For now in my new class of W45F, i reaaly hope we can be as close as possible like E36C. Perhaps it's a matter of time when we understand each other better. =D

2008-09-04T22:48:00.016+08:00

I am supposed to blog about the recent days in school for Sem 2 in my new class but something happened to replace that thought. Gahh!

As stated in my msn nick whereby no words could describe my feeling now. That was pretty random though but somehow there's a hidden meaning in it.

No idea as to why i'm feeling like this. A feeling of vexation, confusion and especially rejection. My heart feels heavy at times when i don't even know why.

Or am i imagining too much till my mind is filled with assumptions and negativity??

Is fatigue the cause of everything?

Sometimes i really do wonder. Could all of these heartaches and headaches be unnecessary??

Maybe i shall leave with some random poems or words.

You make me feel wild and free,
But yet there is a dark side
And I don't want to be taken for a ride.
I get so lost when I gaze into your eyes.
You make me feel
the sparks of fire
But is it love or just desire?
I like when we're together.
And wish that this passion would last forever.
But these feelings come on so strong,
And a touch that brings me such bliss.
When I think of you,
so many emotions run through my
mind.
When I don't hear from you,
so many concerns tear at me.

Everything you are
everything you do
each act of
kindness
each look
each touch
every smile
every word
all combine
to make me
love you more each day.
Much love,
monkey.

2008-09-02T14:40:00.013+08:00

Thousand apologies for the late post. I mentioned in the previous post that i will post more pictures. Well here it goes. Do pardon my messy order of pictures for they are arranged randomly. Pictures talk! Enjoy! >.<

Teacher's Day class gathering.

F5 Clique outing @ E hub Downtown East.

JIVE Swensen's outing.

JIVE Camp 2008.

E36C final lessons.

Culture lessons will be remembered!

Grace will be remembered!
Cognitive lessons were always the most fun and entertaining!
Everything can be settled! Relax! =X
Is Frez dancing hip hop?!?! F5 doing their forfeits! Gahh! =D

Photos taken before and after the F1 interview.

That's all folks! ^.^

East Coast Fun!~

2008-09-01T22:37:00.009+08:00

Well i'm always the latest to blog and yes ching is right being one of the slowest guy to update their random stuff. Ching always blogs like close to 3 or 4 times a day and never fails to update daily. Except for some days when she isn't around. DUH!?! =X

Anyways. Another clique outing has just passed not long ago. Okay 2 days ago. Humphs! More people turn this time round and that's where the fun begins. >.<

Met up with hobart, alvin, herman, wen shuen and darryl at AMK bus interchange in the morning. Damn! For the moment i thought i was the latest when wilson woke up late. Gahh! Oh btw Darryl finally cut his hair!! Muahahaha! His hair is super short i mean really really short! I think shorter than during secondary school days. =D Which means.. I win him! Random! >.<

Anyway, we had breakfast-lunch near the AMK hub whereby after which we proceed on to take bus 135 to East coast. 1hr trip would definitely make my butt numb. Ouch! =X

As usual we almost got lost in the middle of nowhere. But fortunately wilson and alvin seem to know the way there. There were like a bunch of kids on board the bus and were heading the same direction as us. The hilarious thing was that the bus driver actually so called command them to get into the bus when they had some doubts on which bus to take. The rest of us were like laughing to ourselves. I know it's mean. =X

Finally arrived at East coast and busy considering which bicycle rental offers the best deals for renting bikes. Then suddenly there's this guy appearing in our midst saying that they are offering a great discount or whatever you call it. Buy 1 hr get 2 hrs free @ $6! I mean we were smphasizing on the GET 2 HRS FREE. Without further hesitation, we just decided to go with it.

There we go cycling like no one cares about our doings. tried to attempt to cycle towards the Changi Beach area but however the roads there are under construction. Gahh! So much for being adventurous.

Speaking about being adventurous, we happen to pass by Dr. William Tan. He was like smiling at us while rolling his specialised bike?? Whatever you call it but it's kinda cool though.

Went to have dinner at Chomp Chomp serangoon gardens. There goes to having more pimples. Gahh! Pretend that night didn't happen at all. You didn't see anything. Right?? >.<

Dinner was lonely due to the fact that everyone enjoyed themselves there and oh yeah, I coincidentally met Manli there as well. She was like down there shouting my name and now everyone there knows my name. Great! ^.^ Anyway she called me twice with different numbers and i always thought that they were like agency calls which i mostly avoid.

Random Pics below.

Wilson took this and must say he got quite a skill there in photography.

Ice cube, a place where we hanged on after dinner. Sinful ice cream available there.

Something which i think it's lovely and pretty. ^.^

Here's me and MANLI at Chomp Chomp! >.<

Tatas for now!^.^

2008-08-30T23:54:00.008+08:00

Okay i'm not gonna blog about my recent events for now. Well for now i feel like posting this few meaningful phrases adapted from Simple Plan's latest album with the song titled Save you.

It's amazing that i could listen to this song over and over and over again without getting sick of it. But this song somehow affects my life currectly. Pondering on what bother me the most. Maybe these words could roughly summarise my personal emotions. >.<

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see
you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away.

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know.

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away.

No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand.

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause
I’ll be waiting if you fall
You know I’ll be there for you.

I wish I could save you & I want you to know.

With love,
Monkey.

2008-08-25T17:03:00.016+08:00

Back from the JIVE camp and i got lots of things to talk about.

Well even though it was like only for 2 days 1 night, the fun we had was awesome like what my ~~big sis~~ Yi Yin said. LOL!=D

I was really looking forward to the camp as i knew that most of the peeps i know were coming!

Met up with Jia Yan, Yan Jin, Pei Shan and Hong Bin to have Mac breakfast at causeway 45 mins before the meeting time. Davis just woke up then unfortunately. >.<

Thought we were late when it was like 2 mins to 8am?? But there were like only 13 people so far?!?! Anyway it's good not to be too late! Right? ^^

I was like separated from the rest of the peeps to another group. *sob sob* But at least i got wei jie to accompany me! Oh there's jac and liang yu in my team too~! ^.^

I soon got to know the rest of the team members: charlene and tasha! >.<

Our team name was called Hot Asses! An unusual name i suppose?!?! haha! When we say our team's name, everyone was like giving that blur look and saying HUH?!?!=X

The others consisting of 2 teams almost had similar names like AJ & NTJ. They said AJ was Awesome Jive. But actually there is another meaning behind it. Not supposed to reveal it though. =D

Moving on. Our team cheer is like soo sexy i mean HOT! LOL! They gave the words, i gave the actions. Don't ask what actions i have came up with because they are mainly for mature 18 and above.=X

So much has happened and Joel joined us then. I really must say that he has really helped us alot in the RP "amazing race". Well we had our own ways of finding our stations. LOL! Only our team members know the ways.=D

Everything went rather smooth as in to clear each passing stations and finally we move on to the rock-climbing station. Oh man. I tell you it's really easier said than done. In a way, we have to experience it before you judge the difficulty of the element. Sounds like cognitive for the moment about experience. =X

It was really traumatizing climbing up those "rocks"!! OMG! Endurance and perseverance are truly the key factors in this activity. But it helps in training your arm muscles! =D

Moving on. We were all suppose to come up with a skit about any random story with hollywood together with fairy tales. Guess what we came up.

Cinderella mixed with Aladdin and typical Singaporeans "beng-ness".

So exciting right?!?! Okay random.

Tasha as the bullied cinderella who wants the perfect bf.
Me as a sissy bf & the so-called bangala in one of
cinderella's first wish.
Wei Jie as a very ~~mundane~~ wishful
genie??
Charlene as the evil stepsister.
Jac as the nerdy bf.
Liang Yu as the "Ah Beng" bf.

The skit was rather silent as there was no music but fortunately everyone gave us their attention. Hence we could hear ourselves clearly.

To us, the skit was a little screwed up but we didn't expect to impress ah long, kok kok and chris as judges. Furthermore we came in 3rd! >.<

COOL OR WHAATT?!?!

The next day was ~~extremely, terribly and tremendously~~ reasonably tiring day.

The JIVE campers were to go for the real amazing race outside of RP and around woodlands. I don't know what is so amazing about it also. I mean racing against time and trying to compete with other teams to reach the finishing point is amazing?? Hmm.

Anyway. At our first station was quite hectic. We walked front and back aimlessly, went up and down a hill or a park when there is a shortcut to it. How irritating!! >.<"

But at least we teamed up with terry's team Japalang. It's always better to work with more people right??

Walking after walking till about 310pm we reached to the 4th station and so coincidentally it was about to rain. Then our task for the station was to search for small items in a wide field area. GAHH!!

In the end we found like 2 or 3 related to what we were supoosed to find and majority was really rubbish! Gahh! So much for the hardwork we put in finding those elusive-to-find items.

After which, our teams went back by bus. Not supposed to initially but the organisers allowed us to. Oh well all the better for us due to the fact that we are freaking tiring!

Maybe i shall skip the "homecoming" part when we played some games with Vivien and some of the rest. Our team surprisingly came in 3rd although Jac kept telling us not to expect anything more. Well i have taken that into consideration and thought that yea what she say is rather true.

Anyways. The 2nd and the 3rd prize is more or less the same cash prize for the swensen's vouchers. But it is the fun and laughter we treasure more.

Anyway these are the sneak previews i mean pics below during the camp. More will be updated soon! ^.^

Team leaders gathering. =D

Hot Japalang Asses!

JIVE Camp 2008!
Hot Asses Team!

Much Love,

Invincibleguy.

2008-08-20T18:07:00.019+08:00

Back to my second part of the messy events happening. Just back from the chalet and yup i took a really long nap upon coming home at about 1155am to be exact?? Btw this post is gonna be long.

The chalet was quite fun when i at least managed to make my presence known for the BBQ at around 715. You can say that i was the only person ~~over-dressed~~ wearing formal attire there. Jeff was like Wah! Someone looking very high class tonight leh! Whereas me trying to change the subject of asking who has arrived for the BBQ. Smart right? Kidding! >.<

Almost everyone asked me how did the interview go and so on. The only answer i can provide for them is normal loh. Well my definition of normal is that it is just like any other interviews. DUH! But actually i have several complains to talk about before and after the interview.

Firstly, we as in me, Jia Yan, Wei Li, Sylvia, Rainer and Davis didn't expect the interview to be an INFORMAL one when we saw like most of the interviewees were wearing polo tees and jeans?!?! Rahh! We have been tricked! =X

Anyway. Tian ming didn't actually tell us that it was an informal interview and he was kind enough to choose us without going through the first interview. On top of that, he even prepared a ppt for us to study.

Even though we studied for nothing.

Oh yeah, did i tell you that Sylvia look really ~~auntie~~ weird in office-skirts?? LOL!=X

I mean seriously. I almost got a shock when i first saw her wearing that for an interview. I mean it is not wrong but it looks totally unusual when she wears it. HAHA! Perhaps i wasn't used to her wearing them. I always see her wearing beach wear. She even said that she initially wanted to wear beach clothings to "charm" the interviewers.

No comments. =D

It was a very long trip there i tell you. We thought it was a rather short distance from the MRT but we have to walk aimlessly around orchard! Sometimes i really wonder if i am a Singaporean.

Moving on. The interview was delayed as we had to attend a briefing before the actual interview. AND we waited damn long for the briefing to start. At the meantime, we cam-whored in the theatre. Patience is a virtue! Right.. *Grins*

We went in the interview a group of 6 and we really ~~BCC~~ help each other man. HAHA! Well the interviewers were very nice and "informal" to the extent that we have the authority to speak Singlish. =X Hope that we will be selected. Totally looking forward to the part of the F1 event.

After which, that's when i went back to the chalet. I'll talk more about the chalet another time. >.<

The JIVE peeps had an event recently with Wei Li as our overall IC. It is about energy efficiency by schneider electric company.

We had much fun working together, ushering, slacking together and playing with talkies. Opps!=X Anyway! I just enjoy working with the JIVE people! Mostly year 1s though.

So much things to talk about. Maybe i shall talk about the more interesting happenings.

My job as a LT IC would be to give out some evaluation and collect them. Lucky i had Jia Yan next to my area to talk to! =D

We talked alot of random stuffs and soon after around 3pm, we got more company by the rest who are damn free! Weets! ^.^ Love you people! <3

Basically most of the happenings are all in Jia Yan's blog. Just lazy to write them down. apologizes! =X

Was wondering why she took so long in the toliet and asked me to look after her area for a while. Ahha! So this is the real reason huh?!?! Rahh! Kidding! >.<

This is Jia Yan's area or counter. Helping her to take care while she was in toliet cam whoring! LOL! >.<

Tian Ming was kind enough to treat us to Sakae Sushi ~~Delivery~~! Isn't he thoughtful or what?!?! LOL!=D He ordered 3 packs okay! Weets! ^.^ Probably that's a way of thanking us for our efforts?? Yup.

Who took this pic?? Gahh! This is so random me! Damn! >.<

Yummy spaghetti at pastamania! We couldn't really eat in peace with chris and yan jin's cranky jokes! OMG! We can laugh until we almost drop to the floor! LOL! But i guess life would be mundane without the two of them right?? It also trains our albs too you know. Well kinda. >.<

2008-08-19T10:52:00.016+08:00

As usual me having so many events taking place on consecutive days and i have no idea where to start from. This post may be very messy as it is not according to any order. >.<

GAHH!!!

Hmm.. let's see.. anyway i just came back from the first day of E36C chalet although it was rather a little delayed due to some unforeseeable circumstances.

Spent time playing with Ching, Frez, Jeff, Haylie, Han Hui and Gui Liang at the downtown east arcade! Okay we left azhar behind to look after our bags but he insisted alright!?!?! LOL! He said he can come up with all kinds of excuses to tell those who question him about the seats being taken up by our bags.

We were at Macs btw. See what i mean?!?! It is soo MESSY!! Rahh!
It was like so fun playing with them! Doing all kind of ridiculous actions like the spartans jumping like ~~idiots~~ kids. =D

What could be more fun than to spent time with these lovely peeps?? HAHA!^.^

Thank god Mike was late.. i mean really late. *grins*

Moving on. We checked in like about 6pm? Yea. I must say that Mike has picked a perfect location there where it is quite near to the entrance. GO GO GO!! Random.

About like 10 to 15 mins later, Murni, Alia, Suhari, Surayah, Juliet and tutu came. =D While i was busy "studying" for my interview later in the afternoon.

Watched a little of the Beijing Olympics and after which was DINNER TIME at Kopitiam.

Then it was arcade again! Cool or What?!?! >.<>

Okay let me see what's next.

Damn i am running out of time. Gotta meet Wei Li and the rest at Orchard for the interview soon. All The Best To ME! ^.^

No worries people! I'll be back updating my outdated posts! Hey it rhymes! Okay random. >.<

2008-08-16T23:48:00.008+08:00

RAHH!!

Tomorrow is my competition day!! People! Wish me luck okay?? ^.^

I know i have 3 years of experiences in competition but i still have yet to overcome this anxiety in me. Till now i still have not gotten rid of this fear in me, fear of anxiety rather fear of losing. I'm sure that's what other competitiors face too. Even in the Beijing Olympics. I see many stressed faces or perhaps faces showing anxiety as the pressure is on in representing their countries.

But i think the main reason is because the whole world is watching them and this fear of making a slightest mistake hence discriminated would affect their overall performance greatly.

Well basically i'm in the same situation. Feeling the pressure whereby everyone is counting on me when they are not. Rahh! Calm down Ben! You can do this!

Some people are may seem strong on the outside but vulnerable on the inside. Gahh! This really SUCKS! =X

Okay maybe i should just rest early now. Hope i can dream of me performing my best with ease! Random. ^.^

2008-08-12T22:20:00.016+08:00

I'm now very free FINALLY for the fact that i pon computing ~~class again~~. And yes this is the last day of school for sem 1 and i am both happy and sad that this day has arrived. Happy is simply because i can get to enjoy 3 weeks of holidays but however cannot compare to the peeps in NYP as they have 8 WEEKS of holidays! UNFAIR! Anyway let's look on the bright side. They have exams while we don't. Muahahha! Okay random.

The sad part of why i don't really look forward to this day is because i can't bear to see the tragic separation of E36C. I shall blog about that in the next post perhaps. Now i shall speak more about the happy moments.

Day has gone like the wind and the next thing you know it's already national day.

It was on the saturday when i went out with my clique to City Hall area when the NDP is still on. Btw it was after we watched a movie "Money not enough 2" instead of The Mummy when i wondered since when The Mummy was under RainTree pictures. It was really an emotional movie! Winston even cried while i controlled my tears. Hey who says man don't cry?? LOL! It is really a MUST SEE movie!

Moving on. One thing i really didn't like about having to witness part of the NDP celebration is the CROWD!! OMG! It is so like squeezy! Pushing here and there. Even touching here and there. Can really take advantage of the situation. *shakes head*

Saw NS men ushering the crowd in a proper manner and avoiding chaos. Coming to think of it, maybe next time who knows i might have to do what they are doing? Eeeeekks!

The black knights as in the pilots for the NDP truly rocks! That was the first time i actually can get to witness them performing and the amazing thing they did was forming the heart shape in the skies! Cool or whaat!?!?

Hobart brought us together with her SP friends but unfortunately we didn't really talk much or even introduced ourselves to one another. We were like separated a few centimetres away.

Yup. So much for being sociable! Rahh!=X *smacks*

I have no idea who took this photo but i guess it shows out the random me?? Okay random!=X

We were somewhere in a very crowded place trying to get a better view of the fireworks. But it ust seem so dark to take any "quality" photos. That is when we are in need of a ~~quality 5 megapixels with flash camera~~ phone with a flash. WEETS!~

Oh yeah one disadvantage of having a flash is that you can easily can get caught for being random or rather unprepared. Like the above picture.

Alvin is definitely not enjoying winston ~~riding on him~~ sitting on him. See that's greeting by pointing THAT finger and smiling. Rite!~

Did i say that i very much distest the NDP crowd?? Okays! This shows how much i really was annoyed with the people there especially those indian guys! They were like pushing when sometimes there seems to be nobody blocking their way. IRRITATING!~ !@#$%&%$@#!

Well we ended our night by getting a birthday present for Shu En. We were like rushing to previous thots as they were about to close like 10 mins later? Yup. But thank goodness me and wilson thought it was an ideal gift for her. OKAY FINE! Thank Winston for helping to decorate the gift too!=D

Till then tatas!~

2008-08-08T22:31:00.011+08:00

Days have gone by and i have yet to update my blog. So much things happening at the same time till i am rather loss for words now. Maybe i shall try to recall the interesting and the not so exciting adventures that i have gone through. Yes, Life is an adventure.

Thats Suhari in the 'gay' i mean GAbriel outfit! OMG! I mean it's for a drama play. I guess that was his other side of him which we didn't knew all along??

Moving on. I really enjoyed the play whereby the cast is adapted from the bible of how God created the earth as well as Adam and Eve. But it's to a more funny extent. Speaking of Adam and Eve, i really wondered how they knew all about reproduction? Hmm anyway! 'Adam' was one hilarious and horny guy i tell you! His actions towards Eve was like wow! I mean the script writer must have wild imaginations! =X

Adam: Don't touch me! Or else 'something' will get big!!

Eve : What will get big??

Adam: I don't know! But i am liking it!!

Eve : Huh?!?! (Continues to disturb adam)

Adam: I said STOP TOUCHING ME! It is getting bigger!!

Eve : You are insane! Why do you enjoy it getting bigger??

Adam: I have no idea! But thank you to whoever made it BIG!

Funny? disgusting? See what i mean?!?! But seriously, it is quite logical if we were to think about a situation like Adam and Eve when they were the first humans to explore the earth and questions like the above would more or less be posed.

Anyway back to the topic, Suhari really acted well! It was totally awesome!!! The class enjoyed it very much too! Was able to feel the enthusiasm in the room! The atmosphere was GREAT!^.^ Lucky Sha sha wasn't there to watch or else her laughter will definitely freak everyone out including the actors and actresses!=X Hey it's a fact okay!HAHA!

Oh btw that was the day when i pon computing lesson! FIRST TIME! Okay random. But come to think of it, is it really something to be proud of?? Hmm.. *silence*

Majority of the class as in like 15 out of 25 peeps in class actually pon the lesson! I mean this is like the highest rating of sem 1! But as for the rest who attended the lesson had of course complains saying that he still give Bs despite of their efforts in solving the problem. Only Alia got an A. I think. Juliet said she had enough of this and plans to pon the next or should say last lesson of computing. Hmm speaking of which, maybe we should email to him telling him not to bother coming for the next lesson?? LOL!

Are we being harsh?? Let's ponder upon ourselves. *silence for 1 second*

OK! NOT!=_="

2008-08-02T21:50:00.001+08:00

I somehow regreted showing that kind of sleepy sleepy look when i was told to wake up at 830am to sing a birthday song to my beloved mum. Seriously i have no idea what was on my mind that time. A feeling of fatigue overwhelmed me as i reluctantly sang the mundane song. I mean i know it was totally disrespectful to others but to me, it was utterly disappointing to show your "attitude" towards your mother! I really hated myself for it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST
MUM!!!

I went back to sleep and told my dad that it was a bad idea to sing a birthday song in the mornings knowing that i am the type who always grumbles when i wake up. It was like the "tired" side of me took over my body and i couldn't control it somehow.

Gahhs! I didn't have a proper sleep after that either. Perhaps that incident must have bugged me. My mum was also asking me and my bro if we bought anything for her. We gave that blur look and told her it would be a belated gift or rather "surprise". But who are we kidding?? It was just an excuse which we weren't very proud of. This made me ponder upon myself and i decided to do or buy something to show our biggest appreciation to her! However we need time to prepare it. PATIENCE MUM!=)

Had a birthday dinner at Hog's Breath cafe at Chijmes (somewhere around City Hall). LOL! Anyway, they serve really good steaks there! Although it's kinda ex! The free mudpie was heavenly and sinful too! Haha! it was supposed to be for my mum but she said it was fattening and decide to give it a miss. So.. the lion's share is MINE! Muahaha!=X

Oh yea! Another surprising thing that i happen to find out was that Jia Yan's mum's birthday was on the SAME DATE as my mum's!! Purely coincidental? Chanced on a low probability?? One in a million? Bao Bao planned de?? Okay the last one was random. LOL!

Yups. That was so much for my mum's birthday night. Hugs and kisses to you MUM!!!<3<3<3!!!

2008-07-29T13:48:00.021+08:00

Pictures for the week..

Harmony Works VIP Team Members!

VIP Team at work and play..

Wilson, wee tong, Aaron's birthday BBQ..

Randomness.

2008-07-27T22:51:00.009+08:00

26th July ~ Harmony Works! Event

Time to update or else the ahem will complain that my blog is DYING! RAHH!

Ok anyway, it has been a week for me and i mean a very busy week for me. Although i can't really recall most of the events but i know that the usual ups & downs occur everyday. Let me just share the recent event which took place yesterday. There are so much things to say but these are just some of my favourite memories.

Yesterday was another JIVE's latest event aka the finale of the Orange Ribbon Project. Was chosen to be part of the VIP team by Slope i mean Allynn! Haha! Really thanks for giving me the opportunity to take up such a role.^^

The preparations are rather hectic for some people like yin, chris, kenneth and allynn because like in a normal event, unexpected situations are likely to happen and the tricky part is to solve it asap. When i was there helping the operations peeps together with wei li and terrence, i could merely feel the pressure of them trying to get things done.

Obvious expressions and actions made by chris when slamming the talkie on the floor showing that he is damn pissed with something. Well its common for all event planners and this is something which i hope to learn. Yup. One step at a time Ben!

Others say that a job of a VIP usher is important but i don't feel that it is really that important. I mean to my perspective, we were just slacking around, talking to one another, but until kenneth emphasized on the importance of being a VIP usher. Then i started having second thoughts. >< Cool or what?!?! Haha random.

Kenneth and Kok Kok were extremely nice and patient with us. Caring for our needs and make us comfortable even though they were like damn stressed up. It's not as easy to handle muti tasks at one go but i think they had done a really great job! Thanks to you both! You guys are much appreciated!=)

Expected the VIP to be formal as in their actions to be formal but instead they were more "informal" like don't really go according to what we had planned them to do. In a way it is good as we can lessen work load if there's any.

Went to watch the X files at 925pm with most of the organising committee and as what Allynn had mentioned in her blog, it is damn ROTTEN! Omg i just spent $10 just to watch 15% of the movie and 85% zzzz! RAHH!

I just love the JIVE peeps! Events is just my cup of tea!

2008-07-16T23:06:00.006+08:00

~REGRETS~

There are still uncertainties as to why i am feeling moody and even "high" in school today. First of all, it may probably due to lack of sleep or din had a really good rest. Someone could be cursing me by having unusual nightmares and for all i know, it could be someone i know. That was random. Even i myself don't understand what i am talking about.

Another reason as to why i don't feel like myself today is because the culture faci is ill and couldn't facilitate our class. I was like OMG, there goes another B in my page. I mean when a replacement or rather "new" faci were to take our class, it feels like the first day of school whereby we have to start introducing ourselves to the her and she was yet to find out more about our standards so on and so forth.

Felt quite ignored during class discussions as everyone seem to be "shooting their arrows" here and there. Without knowing it, one could be speechless all of a sudden when there wasn't any time to counter. I mean we all should respect one another when they sharing their views but don't you think we should give others a chance to voice out? No offence anyway.

But the main reason why i am disturbed is the consequences after yesterday's happenings after school in my previous post. I mean i really din expect such a clarification could lead to a massive affection towards another individual. Yes this has been bugging me all day and i try to recall back my past doings and all the things i have said. In between these small insights i often question myself like what the hell's wrong with me? Why did i do that? Do you think it only benefit you alone?

That's my character. I just want to seek justification and nothing else not fully considering the side effects on such an approach. Call me hot-headed and selfish if you wish as i totally deserve to be labelled as that. My mum always tell me to put yourself in other peeps' shoes before you make any decision or in this case "minor confrontation".

Indeed i felt better when i was able to make clear my stand but however there's something attached to my satisfaction which is regrets. I don't which word to describe how i feel. Remorse? Penitence? A mixture of words which best describes wrong doings perhaps?

So many things in my mind right now. So many things to say and repent about. In other words, it's just so complicating when it comes to situations like this. Sorry is so easy to say but difficult to express in terms of actions. I guess things are going to be different from now on not to mention in the near future.

我知道我所说的话不能够代替我所做的事，我不介意你叫我無聊，無知，無能。但是我希望你别把这事情再放在心上。因为我也跟你一样很害怕，害怕你会伤心。

2008-07-15T22:36:00.004+08:00

Apologies for my previous random post. I felt better when i posted that but what made me feel even better is to have a good conversation or rather discussion with the computing faci.

Me, Haylie and Surayah arranged a conversation with Mr Ng after school at the library. But we kept insisting to have it in the classroom and gave some random excuse that we cannot shout in the library. Well that kind of freaked him out there a little.

We were like preparing what to bring up in the talk so as to clarify the matter better. Moving on. There he was waiting outside the library entrance while we scrolled in.

He seemed to be very interested about how we conduct ourselves and was really "different" in terms on his concern for the class. Maybe this is the first time we ever had a serious conversation. But seriously, i didn't really expect him to have such a strong judgement for our class' attitude towards learning. We were discussing about why each person deserve such a grade and nevertheless was i aware that even he had a really tedious time trying to grade us according to our performance.

I mean like when he further explained the difficulties he has gone through in carefully grading us, i sort of feel that probably i was a little too demanding in wanting the best grade.

For the moment there i was like pondering on what he just said and so on. A part of me thinks that we have misjudged him over the past few weeks because he tries to blend in with the class and even considering their emotions as in to grade them fairly.

Hence i feel that we could even do a RJ for this post with this question: Do you think that some facilitators may have been misjudged by the class because of his/her behaviour? If yes, why?

Let's try to reflect on this before making any concrete assumptions.

PS: For those who do not agree with me, maybe you can try to know him better by talking to him and hopefully you would realise how important each decision he make in grading. =)

2008-07-15T15:34:00.004+08:00

Feeling really pissed and demoralised right now. Well special thanks to the module and the faci. Based on what i have posted previously, i have mentioned that i have been graded unfairly despite of my efforts. Unfortunately it goes the same for today.

Just finished our "presentation" and yes it screwed up for obvious reasons. I just don't understand why and how it relates to my course?!?! I mean yea it is good to learn something new and can apply them in future. But come on! I think it is ridiculous man! Well it is something which RP provides which i find it useless anyway.

Okay aside from the dreadful module. Let's talk more about the facis. Facis are mainly to encourage and motivate the students. I mean this is what i am feeling just now. Yup.

2008-07-12T22:12:00.006+08:00

I am feeling quite pissed and rather depressed in the morning when i checked my UT and daily grades.

UTs have not been really good these few weeks or maybe the moderation is not enough to meet my expectations. Felt like giving up on them as i was wondering why UTs even exist? Pardon me if whatever i say does not make any sense at all because i am totally fed up with UTs for the same reasons why others also hate UTs.

Another time as to why i am so pissed is due to the fact that i have been graded unfairly all these while. Why must the faci grade someone ONLY based on purely presentation but not during the BREAK-OUTS?!?!?!? I know what i just said has no logic at all but for the moment i felt that justice didn't exist at all! Rahh!

Everytime i open my page on my daily grades, i will always see a damn B for computering. Not only do i feel so unsatisfied, at the same time i feel that my efforts were in vain and felt really sick and tired of giving my best shot. What is it you are trying to tell me?? How can i improve? Goosh!

Moving on. Attended Haylie's band concert on friday and the best part is i forgot to bring the tickets! Opps! Alright okay i eventually went home to take it. Got lost at an unfamiliar place in Raffles Place when Ching and Frez had a hard time trying to direct me to Victoria concert hall. Yup it almost drive us crazy. Was the first time i saw Nini dressed till we cannot recognise her and NO Nini, you were not over-dressed! You look stunning!(when you spent 2 hrs choosing the outfit)=X

The concert was truly spectacular as in the members were really enthusiastic when they were doing their part in making the piece wholesome. Great work Haylie and all the band peeps!

Chilled out at Mac's and Ching and frez were like complaining about the VPN. Went home around 1140.

2008-07-08T21:55:00.005+08:00

2nd July ~ Adventure Learning @ RP with E36C

Had Culture module that day and the problem was who am i? Hmm.. these 3 words may be simple but difficult to explain and even elaborate. Anyway, the main module or rather more towards the fun learning experience would be the adventure learning later after culture. Just as i expected, not ALL of the peeps in E36C turn up for it due to certain circumstances? Maybe?

Moving on. The above peeps turned up for the fun and thrilling (some may call it) high element attempt. We din not only turn up just because of the CE points but also to encounter something which challenges ourselves. However, we were splited into 2 groups and the faci for our side was Selamat. LOL yea i know the first thing that comes to your mind is MAS selamat rite?? Haha! Anyway he din mind being called the "brother" of mas selamat. But he was a nice and amusing instructor to talk to.

We were provided with the equipments which i totally forgot the names of them but they were really uncomfortable! The area where most GUYS feel uneased is at the groin area. Yeah laugh all you want. =D

Somehow i think that this programme can really let someone express their fear of something especially heights. For example, Xinyi is usually the quiet ones in class but who knows when she is up there, her facial expression changes during the intense situation which i find it cute. LOL!

Paired up with Han Hui even though we were supposed to pair with another random guy from another class but who cares? LOL! I must say it was nice partnering with him through out the journey of high elements. Gave inspiration to each other and teamwork to achieve greater heights. Yup.

That's Han hui and me purposely got drenched in the rain.

Okay this is Han hui and mike acting hunky?

Us acting GAY! WHOO!

This is the random video recorded after the ALC. We were too "high" i guess? Anyway enjoy! =)

I'll leave you with my RJ for the ALC.

From the experience i have gained at the Adventure Learning Center, i must admit that what i have experienced there has brought a great impact on my life and learning in RP. First of all, let me share what were my thought processes that came directly into my mind when i was attempting the high element course. At the beginning of the course as in when i entered the Adventure Learning place, i looked at the obstacles which i have to face and the reaction i gave regarding the high elements was rather different from most of the people there. At first i found it to be an easy obstacle to overcome as i have over estimated the height between the ground and the 4 storey element. Fear of heights is very common to everyone including me for the fact that I assume this is not much of a big deal to cross the obstacles there. But unfortunately, due to my arrogance and over confidence, my deepest fear is about to slowly trigger as i walked up the stairs getting ready to attempt something which i always fear since childhood. When i was up there, i did not even dare to move a muscle not to mention looking down from where i am standing. Basically my facial expressions could tell it all that i was afraid of height elements and this is something which i have or rather MUST go through despite eagerness of quitting. But thanks to my team mates who gave me moral support to overcome my inner fear, i was then able to successfully complete the challenge faced! During the process whereby my partner gave me strength and confidence to carry on and not give up! At the end, the feeling of completing the obstacle as well as defeating my deepest fear, could never be so satisfying to the extent that i am now able to face tougher challenges!
The following experience which i have mentioned above somehow relates to my life in RP. There will always be difficult situations and problems. It is only to test our confidence and determination level. I have therefore learnt that with perseverance and confidence within us, we will be able to face ANY obstacle which comes before us and in turn facing them bravely! =)

2008-07-06T20:52:00.016+08:00

29th june ~ Yellow Ribbon Sports Carnival By JIVE!

Hey folks! Very sorry for not updating my blog since i'm not sure when. But anyway, there were lots of events happening be it fortunate or unfortunate. Well mostly fortunate. Recently as in a week ago, the JIVE team participated in the YRP thing at Toa Payoh Sports Hall. Yup. We took many pictures like around 500 plus in total? Well these are some of the pictures to summarise the whole event experience. LOL!

Here's YIN! The overall IC who always get lots of stress trying to make the event successful and fun!=) Btw we are at the games area there..

Okay that is vodka in the monkey suit but actually it was MY JOB to be in it. LOL but he acts more like a REAL monkey in the picture right?? HAHA!=D Oh the "extra" on the right is Allynn the S-L-O-P-E girl!! *Coughs*

Some random actions. I think =P
Don't we look like secret agents?? Cool huh? Investigating on SERIOUS stuff? Nah i was exaggerating.

Okay this picture is perhaps "behind the scenes" kind of thing? Haha anyway they were the centre of attraction to the crowd.
This one is random so just ignore it. Put it for the sake of putting it. So yeah.

No comments for this pic. Moving on. =D

Okay me and wilson were BORED and random. Just Random. Hey nice words! Okay random.

I really don't know what to say about this but is wei jie trying to pick a fight or is it me?? hmm..
Allynn the shortie trying to prove her talent in jumping with her legs tucked in??
Now thats me in the monkey mascot acting emo or Ah Beng. Teehee!

OMG! What is Chris trying to do to me?? Thats like disgusting! LOL

Monkey Kena RAPED!

Aww isn't that sweet? I meant me! hahaha!JK!

Kok Wei, Me and Wei Li.

Here's me in the warm monkey mascot reluctant to be known to public because this monkey is forced and bored. LOL but hey that was just the beginning of my role in the event. But somehow i start to like being a "monkey" not because of popularity as the "cartoon" of the event, but to see the smiling faces of the public especially the kids.

Finally that's Allynn probably trying to tease me with that blur look of mine. She just enjoy teasing me. Hmm let's see who will have the last laugh after some discrimination about her hair! Muahahaha!

Anyway, I assume everyone who was involved in this project had much fun and laughter! JIVE just rocks all time! =D

This is my RJ for the event:

I have learnt that during my whole involvement in this Yellow Ribbon Project would help me to be more efficient in whatever role i am assigned to during any events. I also learnt that there is no such thing as a "one man show" in any event because we need to work together as a team in order to make the event a successful and a fun one. Based on my involvement in this project, i have made new friends to interact and work with. By further interaction, i would be able to communicate better with my new friends in future JIVE IG projects. Somehow i was able to perform leadership roles during this event and it impacts my personal character in future projects as i have gained some experience and i roughtly know what is expected from me. =)

Till then tatas!

2008-06-29T22:32:00.004+08:00

28th June ~ Finally a haircut.

Okay it took my mum a really really long time trying to convince this stubborn me to cut my hair. And after like tedious thoughts and observations of the random people with short hair, well averagely short, me finally deciding to cut the "messy" hair of mine which i kept for about 3mths??

Well another reason why i chose to trim my hair is because during my trainings, it gets kinda annoying when it keeps "blocking" my vision. Talking about my fringe here. LOL!

Anyway. My mum recommended me to a salon near our house where she "knew" many good hairstylist and had great impressions of their skills. Hence introduction to the merryland salon took place.

A young guy name Kenji has quite a hip and cool hairstyle but sadly it didn't interest me much. Except for the spikes which i find it nice and natural. But however he wasn't the one who's going to cut my hair but instead it was his uncle?? Richard?

Richard looked rather senior compared to the other hairstylists there. And he seems to be quite a nice and friendly guy too. Yes he was. Giving honest opinions on how i should style my hair as well as the alternative ways of modern fashion among youngsters.

Moving on. The trimming was fast and looked ralatively okay to me. Although my mum said that there wasn't much of a difference. Next was highlighting my hair. Whoo! The process which i like the most as well as the outcome of it. He suggested to highlight golden brown and mix with ash grey as the base colour. Hmm i was thinking kinda of cool rite?!? LOL! Yea I agreed with his suggestions as i assume he knows the latest fashion which is popular to the teens nowadays.

The entire process took about 2 to 3 hours? Quite satisfied with the service and the new "image" of Ben LOW! Woosh!=P Unfortunately, the colour will fade more as in become more obvious in a week or so. Haiz too impatient to view the glorious results which slowly happens day by day. Okay till then.

2008-06-26T22:32:00.009+08:00

26th June~ Emotionally Drained

The unexpected outcome became the expected. Or rather the expected truly became the expected.. Well there are many reasons to why i say this because my mind is totally, completely confused! I won't explain much of what event took place last night as it would only drown me further.

A state of Melancholy engrained my body and soul after the various complications which i cannot elaborate much due to some personal issues. All i could do was to wept helplessly deep in my heart, with a fake smile on the outside showing that i'm okay.

Couldn't sleep properly for about an hour as it keeps appearing in my mind repeatly. Tears could never end and no matter how many buckets it can fill, it won't make a difference..

But somehow i just feel a sense of satisfaction which i have no idea how to describe it. Maybe it could be because i was finally able to get it off my chest and face the music?? Well in a way, i was both happy and depressed at the same time. 70% depressed and 30% happy to be exact.

However, only till then i realised that those two words really hurt me for a moment and caused me breakdown for a while. (only wilson knows what are the 2 words)

Only then i also come to realise how love can really destroy oneself. And probably i was so tired of not being loved. I mean like how do create much an affection for someone he likes? To love is easy, but being loved is another different story. It is indeed complicating. No doubt about it. =/

Moving on. The next day which is today was like a bad day to everyone in the class even the faci. But i think this bad day had the most impact on me unfortunately.

Was in the train towards woodlands listening to emotional songs which dampen my morning. Yes i know.. what a way to start a morning. But i just can't help thinking about it and using music to "remind" me about the happening. Damn! =X

When i was in the class, there was total silence and had the fear of what's going to happen next. For once i was like speechless and wasn't myself today. Couldn't answer or even understand what the faci is trying to say either. Shafiq even asked me why i so emo.. i was like wah he can even tell that i'm depressed?

During the first break out, wilson called me and told me to join him for breakfast. I was like oh well why not.. I din even had the mood to do the worksheet for obvious reasons. Anyway i really couldn't help it but to share my sorrows with someone.. Hence i told wilson everything. He is the closest friend i can ever have. He responded by telling me that he understand the situation i am in because he had been through it before and rather recently. Gave me a few advices and consoled me when i felt like it was the end of the world.

I seriously felt so much better after sharing. The cheerful side of me began to show as i returned back to my classroom. Things were different then. Me focusing on the worksheet and only the worksheet even though i am trying my best not to think of it. Sometimes like what ching said, can we move on in life?? Well that was what wilson told me to do too. Why not live your life to the fullest by being cheerful and out going? (Although Emo is in my context) Moving on is probably the option which i have to consider.

And now i'm picking up the pieces and putting my
heart back together.

2008-06-24T12:51:00.015+08:00

23th June~Time passes randomly

Time, commonly described as the duration regarded as belonging to the present life as distinct from the life to come or from eternity, indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events succeed one another. But there's something which they didn't state.. Why time just passes fast sometimes without us realising that a week can just be gone with a blink of an eye.

Anyway.. the so called first week of school whereby my brother is still having his holidays.. well basically staying at home, going to gym and so on. School was as per normal meaning to say that i am coping relatively well and felt that as time passes, my maturity level increases as well?? Hmm.. contradictive huh?!?! Also, who knows as time passes by, boredness start to appear in the midst of my presence. So much for maturing when time seem to contort in darkness..

Took some random photos of myself during the 1st break out.. well actually to show off that i have a new "style" which i think is fashion. But as expected, i received many funny comments by my classmates that i look more girly or GAY!?!?! But come on! It's just the new me!!! LOL!

Yup.. Another gay i mean HAPPY side of me! With GL and his hands as the random background.. Now That's GL below.. Erm not exactly sure what is he doing there^^

Moving on. During one of the days which i forgot when, we went to sentosa to celebrate hester's advance birthday. But however, me and wilson went straight there after school and doing RJ. Well there are some delay and disruptions here and there, till the end we only like went there for about an hr or so just to witness the birthday cake "ceremony". yea. Reached home probably about 1230am and getting ready to rise and shine for another mundane day in school.

Time and again i have been mugging through my performance in school desperate for good grades.. Okok fine! Is to compare grades with wilson. He's like one of the best in his class and got more As than me! Damn! Hence, taking my facis' comments seriously and been through some reflections and trainings to enhance myself! OMG i'm like writing RJ now.. Damn! Anyway, I'm glad that my efforts were not in vain and were appreciated for! See below for evidence!! Muahahahah! I was like at the top of the moon when i saw 4 As for a week!!! Ahahahaha! Wilson never had this kind of arrangement b4.. I OWN HIM!!=P Okie.. I think i shall stop here.. ZZZ monster attacking me! =)

2008-06-18T18:36:00.009+08:00

18th June ~ Random Media.

Here are the videos which we took when we were like bored. Haha enjoy!^^

2008-06-17T22:43:00.026+08:00

17th June ~ Patience is a virtue, Take 1 & Action!

Here i am blogging once again and with the fact that i have completed my RJ in school without any distractions! Haha! But then i had to complete like 4 RJs, 1 for the class, 2 for the JIVE thing and the other is for the Wushu camp thingy.. Yea quite alot of assignments.. LOL! I have already done like 3 of them and the last one which is the Wushu 1 erm.. later perhaps?? HEHE! JK!

Moving on.. this morning i woke up damn early okie.. hmm like about 630? Had to meet nini at Woodlands MRT at 8am.. It was UT day! OMG! Hahaha! When i reached there, we keep "arguing" whether to take bus or walk to RP.. Well i guess the guy has to give in to the lady?!?! Hahaha! OkOk i admit that it took about 10 mins to reach there.. Time there was abt 825.. For once, i reached RP so early! I was earlier than Ching!! Haha it's an accomplishment! Ok that was random..

Alright, i'll shall not talk more about the UT because for some reason i feel that i din do really well for it.. but anyway nvm.. The faci for computering seem to change a little today as he look rather radiant and prepared to teach the class i guess? Compared to the previous lesson we had with him.. it was so much better.. I think it's pretty obvious that he showed some improvement in his teachings such as encouraging us more rather than "discriminating" or demoralising us like in the last lesson. He even said that patience is a virtue which we must adopt.. well i would have to agree with him on that.. Haha probably he also does his own self evaluation!?!?

After which.. we just randomly move from one place to another without knowing why we are doing that.. haha i mean we weren't in the mood for writing RJs.. Shouting from one place to another.. playing CS on the projector.. random peeps moving in and out of the class.. yea that's after school's "activities".

Shalom wanted to take some random pics sing my web cam and we were like got too attracted and went on to take even more pics with juliet in too! muahahaha! Oh ya there was like videos starring by the usual random peeps doing random actions.. haha it was hilarious when we even made fool of ourselves.. haha cool!=D

I'll leave you with the random pics above! Videos another time! ^^enjoy!=)

2008-06-13T15:19:00.013+08:00

13th June ~ Another Random Post

Hey folks! Hahaha i know i know.. I have not been updating my blog since i dunno when.. Ok fine it is probably due to my pure lazyness and procrastination. Well things have been fine so far.. many ups and downs in school and personal life.. yupyup like having fun and laughter with friends.. bonding with my new RP wushu friends in camps.. Cycling with my clique.. having all kinds of misunderstanding here and there.. LOL oh yea there's sth i need to announce! Haha i got A's for COGNITIVE as well as for enterprise and culture! wahahahaha! But the most shocking thing was that i finally got an A for cognitive!! I was like OMG! hahaha! Okok i'll shall stop boasting too much, in case someone will be jealous.. JK! =))

As time passes, i have also noticed that people do change as well.. physically and mentally.. but perhaps in this case is more towards mentally.. It could be due to the peeps ard us that influenced the drastic change in them. Wanting to known by their presence really changes one's behaviour. This however has its advantages and disadvantages.. This person who change him or herself would be happy in terms of being outstanding with the people who have influenced him or her. On the other hand, the people whom have always been there for him or her would not only be surprised by his sudden change, but will also have this feeling of rejection as in the days that they share will not be the same anymore.. To summarise the things that i have said, i think that everyone has their own individual choice and it is like no one can stop them from deciding what they want.. It may seem a little cruel but this is just a fact which we have to accept i guess.. *Pardon me for my random view on people changing.*

Well moving on.. There are many events that took place recently.. the milo cheering thing which Angie desperately wants to win the grand prize of $3000 in order to buy some handbag which i'm not really sure what is it.. I dun even know why it is called the MILO cheering when there is like no milo advertisement around.. Anyway, we were so called "forced" to attend or else Angie will skin us alive if we dun.. But then only, a few turned up despite the ruthless warning. There present were me, ching, frez, haylie, Surayah, Murnie, GL and guo hao.. there were other people from RP as well but we weren't that sociable to mix around with them.. The cheer was rather mundane like what ching said in her blog.. hahaha! We were like not so enthu that time.. hence the cheer wasn't very good.. yea.. then we had free entries to the badminton match at the indoor stadium.. it wasn't very interesting also.. After which we went to KFC at leisure park in kallang.. But i din eat lah, i just see the rest eat loh becos later i kinda have a buffet dinner with my sec class friends.. Then blar blar blar.. went to orchard sakura eat!! Hahaha so nice to meet up with the rest the peeps of 5A1 again!! HAHA! At the same time, we celebrated lao shi and zuhayr's advanced 27th and 18th birthday respectively.. Hey i bought the cake okie.. hehehe it was lemon flavour and i thought it was sth special which we never tried before.. yupyup=) With some help from the staff there, playing the birthday song background.. I suppose everyone enjoyed themselves there!=D HOME~

2008-05-19T01:23:00.010+08:00

18th May~ Ngee Ann City, Florida.

Well i'm currently in Florida at hester's house blogging.. so yup.

Woke up at abt 830 to get ready for mass but supposed to wake up at 8am.. Hahaha!=P Thought i was gg to be late in serving the 945 mass but lucky there was still a bus that came to my rescue.. LOL! Later when i entered the vestry, i saw Aaron Chua! I was like oh man! i confirm teo gan one becos of my hair.. but anyway he was like explaining to me that he also wanted to keep long hair but he has no choice but to abide to the servers' rules.. Blar blar.. Kekeke! Anyway moving on..
Went to the gym at AMk hub for abt 30 mins then set off to meet Uncle Vincent, Auntie Alice and Grandmum at Crystal Jade Palace for lunch.. I was quite saddened to see that my grandmum wasn't usual self anymore. Judging by her actions and the way she speaks to herself really made me frightened and giving me this uneasy feeling which i am not used to.. Many things just went through my mind as uncle vincent said that she is suffering from senile.. My mum was there acting strong, but i could tell that deep in her heart she is crying.. Hence it also dampens my spirits too=((( After lunch went to walk ard the basement level where plenty of food products can be sampled and admired.
After experiencing this depressing sight and actions, i have learnt to appreciate the things as well as the people dearest to me more! You would never know what would happen to them next if you dun seize every opportunity to be ard with them.. At the same time, i am also reflecting on what has being said during the clique talk and yah.. Sometimes i just only considered my own feelings but din really put myself in their shoes.. Turning point Ben!!! Its never too late!!=D

I missed the moments when we laughed
together.
I missed the moments when we cried
together.
I missed the moments when we
celebrated together.
I missed the moments when you taught
me to be a better person.
I missed the moments when you cheered
me up during my darkest hours.
I just wish that i could bring them
back..